What’s Blocking Me?

A tarot spread to gain insights into what’s holding you back and how to move forward

A blank sheet of paper on a wooden desk hinting at writer's block

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I don’t know if the pandemic had anything to do with it (yeah, let’s blame it on the pandemic), but my writing output decreased significantly over the last couple of years.

And as the pandemic eased and I still wasn’t writing, I finally had to admit to myself that some writer’s block may have come into play. Truth be told, I wasn’t writing that much before the pandemic. So I can’t put the blame there.

It’s not so much that I didn’t know I had writer’s block. I mean, that’s what they call it when you’re not writing, right? But I haven’t been ready until now to bare my soul in order to discover WHY I hadn’t been writing. It makes sense to figure out the cause so that, if it occurs again, I’ll be able to recognize it and know what to do about it?

So I pulled out my favorite tarot deck and devised a simple spread that would concisely answer two main questions: (1) What is the nature  of the block? and (2)What can I do to release it and start writing more consistently?

The What’s Blocking Me? Tarot Spread

I’m not one for big spreads when it comes to getting insight into a personal problem or challenge.

Don’t get me wrong, I will do a Celtic Cross from time to time to get a feel for what’s currently going on in my life or to delve a little more deeply into a matter. But if I just want the bare facts, a smaller spread will do the job.

I simply have to make sure my question is clearly and concisely stated in order to get a clear and concise answer. This means creating just enough spread positions to get at the heart of the matter – that is, what’s going on  and what to do about it.

What's blocking me? 5-card tarot spread with each position identified

To answer my two writer’s block questions, I came up with the followoing five spread positions.

(1) Where I am now – This gives me an idea of how I’m currently dealing with the writer’s block.

(2) What has blocked me in the past – This will tell me what kept me from writing in the past (question 1).

(3) The most effective action I can take to release the block – I could probably expand this to two or three actions, but I want to focus on the most effective one that is guaranteed to get me to my goal (question 2).

(4) A resource that’s available to support me – Again, I could ask for more resources, but for now, one will do. I just have to make sure to use it.

(5) The final outcome – What new reality awaits me if I follow the guidance provided?

I could also have added a position to get input on what will keep me from releasing the block. But I figure that’s going to reveal itself as I interpret the cards. Plus, reversals are often a good indication of this.

The Reading

The Light Seer’s Tarot is my go-to deck for doing these kinds of personal readings. There’s just something uplifting and transcendent about the answers I get when I use it.

Chris-Anne, the deck’s creator, has given a modern interpretation to the Rider-Waite-Smith (RWS) images that are very easy to relate to.

5-card what's blocking me? tarot spread using the Light Seer's tarot deck
What’s Blocking Me? spread dealt using the Light Seer’s Tarot deck

Initial Insights

Honestly, I was surprised by these mostly positive cards. Surely something as difficult as writer’s block should have more reversals or perhaps a 5 or 10 of Swords in the spread.

Also notable is that three of the five cards are Swords. This isn’t surprising since my question focuses on writing, and Swords, representing the Air element, are all about the mind and its mental processes. I’ll look at these three cards as a unit at some point in my analysis (see the 6 of Swords reversed below) .

Card-By-Card Analysis

(1) Knight of Wands – I clearly have the energy and enthusiasm required to take up the task of writing more consistently. I’m ready to passionately express who I am through my writing.

(2) 4 of Swords – Usually this card lets me know when I need to rest and rejuvenate, so I was initially stumped that it would represent the block. But when viewed in light of what has kept me from writing in the past, I thought that perhaps I had become a little too comfortable in my nest and that  I needed to take some steps outside of my comfort zone with respect to writing.

In the past, it was often hard for me to share my writing, especially on topics like divination, for fear of being criticized or ridiculed. But I’m clearly ready to “face the fear and do it anyway” if the Knight of Wands is any indication.

(3) King of Swords – What action do I need to take to move forward? In this instance, I need to see myself as what I’m going to call the Master Writer, supremely yet humbly confident in my ability to communicate via the written word. This is essentially a change in mindset that I need to undertake.

(4) 6 of Swords reversed – How, you might ask, can a reversed card serve as a resource? In this instance, I believe the reversal represents something that I need to do in order to flip the card upright so that it CAN serve as a resource.

Notice that when the card is reversed, the woman in the boat is facing the 4 of Swords, my comfort zone. When flipped, she’s moving in the direction of the King of Swords. This tells me that I still have some work to do to let go of perfectionism and fear of criticism in order to fully assume  the mantle of Master Writer.

Also noteworthy is that In both the RWS image and Light Seer’s versions of this card, the figure in the boat is being steered or pulled by someone else. Reframing how I view myself as a writer doesn’t require any physical effort on my part. In fact, stillness is necessary in order to move from reacting to criticism to responding with equanimity in the face of it.

(5) Temperance – Finally, stepping out of my comfort zone and seeing myself as the Master Writer that I am will result in a new level of emotional mastery, giving me the ability to calmly handle constructive criticism and let the destructive variety roll off my back.

That’s a pretty concise answer to my questions. I’m clear about the cause of the block and what to do to start writing more consistently. Now I just gotta do it!

Is something keeping you from achieving a desired goal? Try the spread to gain some insight and clarity on how to move forward. Let me know in the comments if you found it helpful.

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The Spacious Present Spread Using the Osho Zen Tarot

My Osho Zen tarot deck

THE DECK

I bought the Osho Zen tarot deck back in 1997 when I was in a deck-collecting frenzy. I even used this one for a while, unlike many of the other decks I’ve collected over the years. At the time, I was very active in the American Tarot Association, attended many conferences, and, like many others, was always on the lookout for the “next great deck” to collect.

It was also during this time that I did a lot of tarot readings for myself, so much so that I finally had to stop. I was asking too many questions and not really listening to the answers. Or I was getting answers that I didn’t want to hear.

Fast forward 20  years later, and I have picked up the cards again (well, I never really put them down completely). Not only am I doing readings for myself AGAIN (not too often though), I’m also reading for others and writing about tarot.

The Osho Zen tarot is a 78-card deck (+1 – The Master, unnumbered) based on Zen Buddhist philosophy. According to the guide that comes with the deck, this philosophy is all about awakening the inner Buddha or higher self wisdom and focuses on building awareness of and attention to the present moment in order to allow that wisdom to come through.

So while it uses the Rider-Waite-Smith structure of major and minor arcana, the card images (which are absolutely stunning!) and delineations are more reflective of the teachings of the Indian sage, Osho, as interpreted for the deck by one of his disciples, Ma Deva Padma.

THE SPREAD

A reading for myself

The “spacious present” is a concept used in nondualistic philosophies like Buddhism and Vedanta and the science of quantum physics in which past, present, and future occur simultaneously.

So even though the reading appears to move in a straight line from past, through the present, and into future, it actually reflects what’s going on in the querant’s (the person getting the reading) life right now.

It can be used to answer just about any question you might have about yourself and what’s currently going on in your life. For my reading, the focus was on how to unblock the flow of money coming into my life.

In the above pictured spread, the cards read past, present, and future from left to right like a typical “PPF” spread. However, this isn’t a predictive spread. As I said, its focus is on what’s going on in your life RIGHT NOW, what recent past influence has lead you to where you are in the present, and what’s the most likely outcome you’ll experience in the near future.

The central card of the spread is the “Present” card (although the two majors are pretty powerful influences), with the Past and Future cards providing more information on what brought me to where I am and where I’m headed respectively.

I typically draw an additional card from the bottom of the deck for insights based on subconscious knowledge that I’m not aware of (card on the right below the main spread).

And thanks to a suggestion from @seedsofshakti on Instagram, I added the card on the bottom left, chosen from the middle of the deck. I interpret it as subconscious knowledge moving towards the surface of consciousness. It’s what I’m slowly becoming aware of or what I already know but perhaps haven’t been paying enough attention to.

THE READING

The message for me is that I need to pay more attention to my inner guidance which I haven’t trusted enough in the past.

I also need to stop living my life burdened by the guilt of past mistakes and failures. I also need to stop basing what I do on other people’s “shoulds,” “shouldn’ts,” and expectations. That only brings exhaustion and stress which can lead to illness (I had a flu-like cold in July along with weird neuromuscular pain and muscle cramps in my legs and feet).

Even though the card symbolizing my letting go of others’ expectations is in the future position, I’ve already started doing this (hence the reversal – those suckers are falling off my back!). But clearly, there’s more I need to release because I am starting to recognize how damaging stress is to my immune system.

This letting go will be therapeutic, enabling me to regain clarity via intuitive guidance, strengthen my immune system, and allow my creativity to flow, all of which will lead to more financial security.

READING SPECIAL

I’m currently offering email readings based on my Spacious Present spread, using the Osho Zen tarot deck. My 5-card spread readings are usually priced at $67.

But I’m offering this spread (and all other 5-card spreads) for the special price of $49. I’ll even throw in some astrological insights based on your natal chart and current transits (I’ll need your birth data for this).

You can order your reading HERE. Click the “What’s Going On?” 5-card spread option on the Services page.